When its all said and done…I can wait ♥

July 7, 2008   Filed Under: Faith, God, Love, Poetry, Relationships   689 words

I often find myself complaining about the few men I have/or had in my life. I analize everything they do and say looking for another meaning. I focus so much on where something should or could be going instead of enjoying the time now. I say constantly, “There are no good men. I give up on love.” I try to rush relationships to make them into something they aren’t meant to be.

Ok there is my confession. Sad isnt it, lol. So I’ve lived like this, putting all my emotions into men and trying to force love, for a long time now. I would also look at other relationships and sometimes envy them, but all of the relationships Ive looked up to have been broken down before my eyes. I said I would never settle for certain things a man do but I have realized that in “good and lasting” relationships you dont settle but you understand that you dont control that person and they have their own personality so you take the good with bad. If you ask a couple that have been married for many years and are truly happy if they love everything about each other they would laugh at you.

I want to get married and have another child. I have always wanted the family life. And in time these things will come. Now I see that it is not life or death to have a “boyfriend”. I want a man. I can wait. There are other things in my life that are important and many goals I want to acheive. So I, Dominique, do not give up on love or romance, my handsome black men, and most importantly I do not lose faith in God. He will always give me what I need and want, when its the right time.

 

God Spoke to my spirit and said, “Wait”

When the last fool left
With my dignity in his hands
When the joker before that
Made all those demands
Mr. Right, please don’t speak to my body
Speak to mind
My soul’s been waiting too long, the right man to find
This highway of life has had its ups and its downs
I would have thought by now, true love would be found
My heart has been broken, is loneliness my fate?
God Spoke to my spirit and said, “Wait”
I’ve made some bad choices
Listened to the wrong voices
Should I keep going at this rate?
My head says yes, but God said “Wait”

 
I cannot deny the jealousy I feel
My feelings of envy are all too real
Always the bride’s maid, never the bride
It’s hard to keep looking, on the bright side

 
I try to keep myself up
Try to be pleasing to the eye
When will it be my turn to become a beautiful butterfly?
I have read the scriptures, prayed the prayers,
Sang the hymn and cast my cares
In all these things I have fought the good fight
But the loneliness still finds me in the still of the night
No one to hold on to
No one to caress
Is this what God has for those who give Him their best?

 
Then I remember whose child I am
I have been washed in the blood of the lamb
This temple I’ve been given is being put to the test
I must continue to give God my best
I’ve got to start living like a person who wants to be blessed
Not worrying and complaining increasing my stress

 
Instead of raising my voice in a fit of rage
I’m lifting my hands to give God the praise
When the praises go up the blessings come down
I know I’m getting close to higher ground
The devil continues his attempts to frustrate
God give strength and help me to wait.

© Enna Bachelor 2005

Protected: So Tired Of The Drama With My B.D

July 3, 2008   Filed Under: Don't Understand, Personal Life, Relationships   49 words